Confessions ..

I wrote this 3:00 am when all the emotions came running to my mind ..

I lied when I said I didn't care ..

I lied when I said I am better off ..

I admit that I waited ..

and waited for a sign from you ..

a call ..

or a message ..

until I got one today ..

your name appeared on my screen ..

and all I could think of was .. its over ..

although it barely began ..

you said that you wanted to be with me ..

but you cant.. that things are complicated ..

I didn't know what to reply ..

I stood there with silence ..

I couldn't form any sentences or words ..

I replied ..with a short sentence ..

Good luck in everything ..

and goodbye ..

I have never felt so cold or numb in my life..

but I didn't know what to say or do ..

I  still open my phone almost everyday ..

and just look at your name ..

It gives me some weird and good feeling that I can't describe in words..

you are thousand of miles away now ..

I just wish things were different ..

cause I would be with you now ..

and everything would have been different ..

farewell .. 

Reviews

[Soma-ko]

A dam of emotions, and sadly not good ones, seem to have been broken and tampered with for you to feel so heart broken and alone. So cold and forgetful, not wanting to move because you are in a trance that doesn't want to be broken, for you wish not to accept what has happened right before you. A flow of words so steady, conveys the feelings that poured out that day. Hope you feel better by now.

[Sasha]

Indeed Soma .. but thank god I feel better now :) Thanks !

[Soma-ko]

You're welcome, and that's good. :)