A motherless daughter

For Dad,

I’m sorry for being such a hypocrite.

When I said that I was okay with mom’s death, but refused to get out of bed afterwards

When I told you it was because you were never home, truth was I just simply missed mom

When I refused to have a new mom, although I knew you needed her the most

When I stayed quiet when you asked ‘how’s school?’, while I wanted to tell you stories

When I cried and blamed you, since I myself did not know why my tears bursted

And till your death, I will always be one

When people asked if I am okay, I will nod and pretend that I am strong

However, deep inside I am not okay, I haven’t moved on even from mom’s death