Random Entry: 4/26/2014

I can remember being able to fall asleep soundly.
I never had to worry about nightmares, because monsters were INTERESTING not scary.
'Monsters' were never scary, I always wanted to find some way to show them that there was still light inside of them.

Now I can't sleep, and even when I do sleep it's not for long.

I dream about violence.

I dream about being alone, and running for my life.

But it isn't 'monsters' that are chasing me, it HUMANS.

In my dreams HUMANS are the monsters.

I jolt awake, terrified, and too afraid to breathe.

For some reason, Gabriel is always aware of these moments.

Many nights have been spent with him comforting me.

Fingers running through my hair as he sings me back into a state of calm.

A snarky one liner or two...

Gabriel is the reason I haven't crashed.