A sappy ahh thank you

I trust you to.not share this one I'm anonymous online please

Ah where do I begin with your importance. I don't even know. I'm writing this here because honestly it's too big to send on text and I know you like your secrecy. I like mine too. I trust you a lot because you've trusted me with a lot and trust runs both ways.

When I first met you, I honestly was intimidated by you. I think most people are at first. A woman in power is a scary thing but I wonder why. I really wonder why. Maybe because we are so used/conditioned to a man's society that the thought of someone as powerful as that is like seeing a rabbit as strong as a bear. It's an abnormality. Which in reality I think we've just been lied to and conditioned to think like that. I don't think women are the rabbits and the men are the bears. I think a lot of people believe stupid things.

That's why I'm always looking for truth through that conditioning. I used to dislike people for thinking the same, and following the norm. But as I got older I realized that it isn't their fault they live in a bubble. I don't think birds in cages realize there's an outside world either and that helped me emphasize a lot. Which is why I don't blame people for being intimidated by you, but I wish maybe people could for once look past the person and see the reason they do what they do.

Like you, I realized quickly what sort of position you are in. Realized that you do what you do for a reason and that made me curious. I told you I'm always looking for truth in things so I always had this little fascination with you. I won't lie I asked around about you before I talked to you. I wanted to know people's perspectives about you before getting my own. I learned little things like how you liked to sing in the karaoke room and liked to whip your car around.

So I knew there was a little rebel behind your professionalism.

You'll soon learn (if you don't already know) I'm a very very very sappy person. People are so beautiful to me and I think sometimes I'm weird because I collect people like shiny rocks. I told you I hate sharing. There's a lot of shiny rocks in the world but I have only found few worth collecting.

That doesn't mean I don't like looking at all shiny rocks. I love all people, I'll always try to help when I can, listen and be a little ray of sunshine to help them see that they can shine. But very few shiny rocks ever find a home in my heart to stay.

Am I noble honorable person for that? No don't think that. Don't believe that I'm some white armored hero. I Just think there's a lot to be learned in others. That's how I broke out of the close-minded cage I was in. In a way, I do it to benefit myself. I want to learn everything I can about people.
I think I'm a little fake because people like me but they don't know anything about me at all.

I have my front personality which 95% of people see, an alien loving arcade funny person who listens and stuff. I like cooking to them. But you know what's funny?

I don't even like aliens? I'm telling you this now because I don't even like alien stuff much. I like UFOs because I had a dream once I was abducted by one in my sleep, I don't think it was aliens. I don't believe in aliens, I believe in demons and ancient beings mentioned in the Bible. Simular to the annunaki but biblical.

The sheep I always draw represents me, I'm a Christian, a sheep. I based the design off the ps2 loony tunes sheep raider game sheep design bc they were too cute.

I genuinely believe higher forces, maybe demonic abducted me via dream. It happened many many nights. The ufo is based off the cartoons I used to draw as a kid.

There's a lot of things I don't bother explaining to people because I don't think many understand. I think maybe you could though which is why I'm so fascinated by you. And those are the most important parts of me I hide because people will think I'm crazy. And that ufo thing is only a small example.

There is an aura I pick up from you, it's very healing. It's very subtle so I think you're like me hiding that part of you that you know people won't understand. That's the shiny rocks I'm after.

I don't understand it, why it feels like I've met you before and even if we don't talk much you have such a big aura it's enough to even stand beside you and feel happy. Like I'm being seen for once actually and not just that little personality most people see. I don't think you realize how good of a feeling that is, I havent felt that way in a long time.

I'll be honest, I want to know everything about you I can know. As much as you're willing to give me I'm grateful to be able to even have conversations with you. I will hide all of your secrets in my mind and heart and take them with me and I'm going to get sappy again but I don't think you realize just how beautiful of a soul you really are.

Even if it's for a short time, because life takes us to weird places I want to know who you are before I go. If it's work holding you back I will quit. I will walk out but I know you don't want that but I would. Life is too short for me to care about a workplace. You have much more to lose than me and I hate that, it makes me feel guilty wanting to talk to you so bad. I'll be honest I'm sad, I said before the saddest parts of life is when people have to suppress themselves.

I know you feel suppressed. I'm sorry for that, I can fix that. I'm looking for another job soon.

Just know whatever you say, whatever you do, you can be open and trust me. No matter how embarassing or deep. I'm a safe space, I hope you can find a home in my little Rock collection at some point. Because even if I collected a shiny rock it's not a home unless you make it to be.

I've not met a friend like you in what feels like an eternity. Even if it seems like you haven't talked to me enough for me to feel this way I beg to differ. Have you ever listened to a song for the first time and it just hit so hard you sat there like "whoah" thats what your aura is. The way you talk, you're very calculating, but there's is a lot behind that calculation it's very complex and I love challenges. I love puzzle people. Those are the best friends, my favorite types of people.

You're not easy to read. I like a good challenging read. Something to make you think, makes my brain hurt in a good way. Brain go brrrrrr. Idk. Like chamoy. Chamoy confuses my brain a lot too, so I guess you're like the chamoy of friendship. It's cool, you're so cool.

You mentioned not talking to people about your life a lot, and not getting the opportunity to share your life. That baffles me because I guess you're that complex of a person that no one has figured out you're Hannah Montana which i think makes you like an ultra rare shiny rock. A shiny chamoy rock. Brain go brrrrrrr. I like that sentence a lot.

To end this off,

I think you are becoming not just my favorite coworker but my favorite shiny rock at the moment. You're such a good friend to me. It means everything. I'm In a really dark spot right now and you're the little ray of sunshine right now which is so funny, do you wanna trade names?

Oh my God. I just realize your name is in ties with the moon. Sun and moon. Hahaha whoa. Brain go brrrr that's crazy you're gonna be my new best friend just you watch.