An Angel Withers Away

I feel like who I am is gone

Too consumed in my own life

Consumption of mass destruction 

saturating into nothing

Erupting into ticking time, bye bye

back into my own mind

I look in the mirror fading to gray,

Have I always been this way?

I look closer and notice the change

eyes boulder with an empty gaze

In desperation I plead "give it back"

The separation fights back,

detached I might snap, give it back give it back

There is no light, there is no match

nothing to brighten up platinum black

An Angel withers away 

No one remembers 

memories swept in dismay

a vertebrae in another mascarade

Reviews

[Eilis]

I started reading some of your older works but then saw your bio and that you’ve experienced some significant life changes so I wanted to start with a recent one. Poetry can be a kind of timeline or scrapbook. A journal even for people like me who aren’t good at writing plainly about life events or keeping track with photos. Our inner universe can sometimes only be captured in poetry, truly. Or some other art form that encourages us to delve into emotion.

I felt that here in your poem. The searching for meaning in a new self that isn’t yet recognizable, a yearning for things that feel lost. I am also experiencing big and difficult life changes and can feel the tension between the old and new that I feel in my everyday here in your words.

Sometimes we choose a different path and sometimes it is chosen for us. Either way it is never easy to watch the old self or comforts go away. But even in the darkest moments I have found the promise of things yet unknown has helped me pull through. Everyday is different but everyday I also see different parts of me peeking through becoming what they will be. There is a rawness to the emotion and experience expressed here. I can feel that deeply coming through. I wish you all the best as you work your way back into writing.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

It has to be tough to look into the mirror and see a face that is strange to us.
Raw and honest as your poetry always has been.
j.

[LazerRays]

Thank you for the kind words Jacob I do appreciate it