Eyes Spiraling Lies

Eyes Spiraling Lies

A Poem by LazerRays
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My drug addiction story

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I'm ashamed mom, I'm ashamed
 I can't look in the mirror again, 
If only you knew where my body has been, 
Where has it been 
Are you uncomfortable now? 
Do you shiver when my arm reaches out 

  "Mother I, Mother I"-

  I can't even spit out goodbye
This face hasn't been touched lovingly In so long
  I forget what kindness feels against my skin 
So warm I feel like I could crawl inside and cry 
And cry While I heal inside 
 But these visions fade my mind 


  I wake up every time. 
 
F**k it. I didn't die. Not this time. 

Either ketamine or coke
 I put it straight in my brain 
Again again
 
I said do it again. 
Till I'm bleeding, till I'm lame 
Until my nostrils burn in pain 

 Look at me, feeling pity, 
 Well I'm the reason I feel this s****y 
Full of electricity, 
bouncing off the f*****g ceiling 
Tweaking, i'm geeking,
 Throwing up methamphetamine. 

  Why all this commotion? 
 You took the f*****g potion, 
You're the swimmer in your ocean 
Said the prayer to your devotion, 

  You're dirty and rotting 
Hammering nails into coffins 
So pale and so exhausted 
Show up to work and forgot to clock in 
They sent you home because you lost it 

 Mother, 
 Every time I reach out to the light 
Turns it's back on me in spite 
 Mom it's 8'oclock at night 
your child is overdosing-
 
Sleep tight.



© 2024 LazerRays


Author's Note

LazerRays
2 months sober off meth, cocaine, and crack

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these are words that many fear to write...either because of the possible reactions or perhaps because they are too difficult to write.
At any rate, this poem is reminiscent of the letters that Sylvia Plath used to write to her mother.
Glad you are back around Sarah...
j.

Posted 4 Months Ago


LazerRays

4 Months Ago

Thank you for those kind words. I'm around here and there. How have you been lately

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LazerRays
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Spit truth, bleed emotion, fight for love, hold to your morals



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Old username: Sarah_Allen_Poe am a former stimulant addict who has found new life and meaning through psychedelics. I enjoy late night longboarding, cooking, astronomy, DDR, retro video .. more..

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