I'm ashamed mom, I'm ashamed
I can't look in the mirror again,
If only you knew where my body has been,
Where has it been
Are you uncomfortable now?
Do you shiver when my arm reaches out
"Mother I, Mother I"-
I can't even spit out goodbye
This face hasn't been touched lovingly In so long
I forget what kindness feels against my skin
So warm I feel like I could crawl inside and cry
And cry While I heal inside
But these visions fade my mind
I wake up every time.
F**k it. I didn't die. Not this time.
Either ketamine or coke
I put it straight in my brain
Again again
I said do it again.
Till I'm bleeding, till I'm lame
Until my nostrils burn in pain
Look at me, feeling pity,
Well I'm the reason I feel this s****y
Full of electricity,
bouncing off the f*****g ceiling
Tweaking, i'm geeking,
Throwing up methamphetamine.
Why all this commotion?
You took the f*****g potion,
You're the swimmer in your ocean
Said the prayer to your devotion,
You're dirty and rotting
Hammering nails into coffins
So pale and so exhausted
Show up to work and forgot to clock in
They sent you home because you lost it
Mother,
Every time I reach out to the light
Turns it's back on me in spite
Mom it's 8'oclock at night
your child is overdosing-