I am nothing to youA Poem by LazerRaysHere's how you hurt me.If only you saw Through me- I'm nothing inside My head is so f*****g empty My voice echoes when I cry In my brain just Bouncing off the f*****g walls When I run around trying to Find myself They stole me And told me it was my fault They said its better to rip my F*****g heart out- They held me down And ripped it from my chest- Now I'm nothing inside Just staring into space You could've put some life in me- After they took it But I'm nothing to you I'm so empty inside Oh, you could've saved me! Those years you loved me I still loved you then, They just tore into me like vultures To fix me and carve it out of me And when I returned brain dead You were gone I f*****g screamed but you were gone You could never know the way I lost myself when they hit me And said God hated me And taught me to hate myself- Abomination- I'll write it on my f*****g wrists! You don't f*****g know me I am nothing I don't feel things the same anymore- They programed it out of me Sometimes I try to remember What it was like to be alive But their wounds burn my flesh And when it wouldn't leave my head- All the war in my head got so loud I tried to make it all stop And where were you-? When I needed you-? Just another face in the crowd Thinking I'm okay because My body is like a robot and I seem fine On the outside But on the inside I'm nothing
Their voices so loud And yelling in my ears I tried to make them shut up But their words are like fire Branded into my eyes
When I tried to kill myself- Did you even f*****g care? All I ever wanted was for someone to tell me they cared To fill the emptiness with Warmth To heal the damage They left on me Well now I know, I am nothing to you-
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Added on December 18, 2019Last Updated on April 11, 2020 Tags: I am nothing, emptiness AuthorLazerRaysSpit truth, bleed emotion, fight for love, hold to your moralsAboutOld username: Sarah_Allen_Poe am a former stimulant addict who has found new life and meaning through psychedelics. I enjoy late night longboarding, cooking, astronomy, DDR, retro video .. more..Writing
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