The Highest my Life Could Get

A suicide poem.

If I fell,  

There would be no one to catch me, 

If I strayed down the wrong path, 

There would be no one to fetch me, 

From the top of the tower, 

It's the highest my life could get, 

Shaken by this chilling wind, 

My mind sadistically forgets,  

If I took a jump, 

There would be no one to prevent me,

 If I closed my eyes and leaned,

 There would be no one to repent me,  

I stand on the roof, 

It's the closest to Heaven I could ever be, 

I'm an angel without wings, 

That's just how my human side should be, 

If I took my life, 

There would be no one to cry over me, 

If I spread my arms and leapt, 

There would be no losing sleep at nigh for me,  

I quiver about the distance, 

But for now I'm at the high of my world, 

This is my time, for once about me, 

And now my body is being hurled,  

Falling faster than my tears, 

Past every hurt and every fear, 

But yet you just walked away, 

No one was ever meant to stay, 

Author's Note

The quote from The Legend of Zelda... The twilight Princess...

Reviews

[zainul]

You clearly defined your freedom.So you can insist:
"If I took a jump,
There would be no one to prevent me,
If I closed my eyes and leaned,
There would be no one to repent me,"
But,I strongly feel that the poets love you.
Despite all of their frustrations and pain these poets come and wait here to read and enjoy your poems.
So live and let other live with poems.

[LazerRays]

Haha, thank you very much. I plan to write a lot more

[zainul]

Thank you Sarah for the assurance.People expect inspiration from the poets to live in this beautiful world.

[NotUsinganymore]

Very sad poem, sometimes it's had to be lonely and there is no one you can cry with. And so many people suffer from it.

[LazerRays]

Yes, many people do... thank you for your kind review JungLee

[Einstein Noodle]

ohhhhh my ... their are thousands more cries of anguish go up when a life falls and their light goes out ... tragedy in we may never realize it ... your poem is brave and necessary .. one of the things we don't want to confront and talk about ... like mental illness ... and death ... suicide isn't necessarily death .. we can commit it every day ... denying ourselves treasures we already own inside ;) understanding the depression that makes high ..... a low bar ...not easy to empathize with the loss of any hope ... one sees ending life as the only option :(((((((((((((((( your poem breaks my heart thinking of all these losses the human race incurs when someone ends their own life :(((((((((((((((((((((((((( love and peace sister ..your message is so powerful i didn't think at all about rhyme rhythm etc. ..
E.

[LazerRays]

Thank you so much for that kind review. Funny, most people who struggle often turn to reading poetry about death. Oddly, I was the same; I wanted to read what I felt and know I wasn’t alone. So I started turning that suicidal feeling into poetry so hopefully someone like me will read and find what I searched for. Thank you for stopping by, stay safe as well :) my friend

[Einstein Noodle]

i admire your courage and intent, Sarah ... see you around eh!? :)

[LazerRays]

Of course! Take care and be safe!

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

I’m sure this is how two people I loved dearly felt and they ended their life my sister in 1982 she was all but 25 I was 22 and my dear friend four years ago she was a year older than me I’m 61 now
I miss them. Both terribly
But the feelings they had were inconsolable
Good poem liked the verse above you quoted too

[LazerRays]

Thank you, suicide is the hardest thing for me to write about since it can often come out as cheesy or attention seeking. But suicide poems are necessary, if one wants to understand. What it’s like to be at the high of your world. I’m so sorry for your loss, I have never had to experience that... it must be horrific to be left questioning why, and blaming yourself and regretting. Thank you for stopping by...

[Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)]

Thanks don’t be sorry I actually just posted a poem in memory of her just now your writing inspired me to write it just now thanks xx

[Avia]

This is eerily relatable and I can understand the thoughts expressed here. You are a wonderful writer.
As for my thoughts on suicide. I would say if you're feeling this way, talk to someone about it. Life is beautiful, I know it doesn't always seem that way, but trust me, someone to will cry over you. Also, the pain you feel now may leave with time. With pain usually comes some sort of happiness or joy. Hang in there, just try to

[LazerRays]

Hang. haha. Sorry couldnt help point out a morbid joke. Anyways, thank you for your review it means a lot for someone to read my poetry-

[Avia]

Lol. I see it too.
You're welcome.

[AJNJ]

Suicide isn’t always such a terrible thing always. There must be a reason so many opt for it. This does indeed feel like a lousy world to be in sometimes. Then the only thing that matters is the people that would be hurt. Well done.

[LazerRays]

Exactly, why do people chose to stay in a world and suffer. Is it because they arent brave enough to venture into the unknown? that they rather stay and suffocate in something familiar? Thankyou for your review

[AJNJ]

Good question. I think it’s the former more than anything else. If I was sure of an after-life, I’d go for it here and now.

[LazerRays]

Yeah. A leap into the darkness. How brave- if you think about it.

[Chris Shaw]

We live in troubled times and there is a high rate of suicide. In the UK many are young men. They are the ones who find it hardest to talk about their problems. They are the ones who think discussing their problems is a weakness. We all need to watch out for one another and be good listeners. Listening can save lives. This was a tough poem to read Sarah, but yet so well expressed. Writing about it, will help others. I haven't read you for a while. Hope all is OK with you.

Chris

[LazerRays]

Ah thank you for stoping by! Communication is the key bridge in connections and often that bridge includes feelings. Difficulty expressing feeling can cut off a lot of bridges leading one to feel isolated.
Things could be better but in times of extreme emotion come good poetry I suppose. Thank you so much 🙏

[Coyote Poetry]

Suicide, a hidden demon. I lost two brothers to suicide. No-one knew they were struggling and afraid. Dear Sarah, you poem is strong, honest and realistic thoughts. My brothers suicides taught me to listen, not lecture. Be kind. We never know the place someone is. Thank you for sharing the powerful poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[LazerRays]

thank you so much coyote, it means a lot when you say that. Im sorry about your brothers, and yes, no one knows what someone may be going through. listening is the best

[Coyote Poetry]

We must listen and be kind. The world is hard enough and you are welcome dear Sarah.

[Falcon1]

Thank you for your kindness in writings this poem it will help so many in need to spread the words of depression and the feeling many have and to reverse the effects of an illness that has many caught in Its Powerful grip. God Bless You My New Friend.

[LazerRays]

Thank you for your thoughts here and your kind words. It means a lot to me when someone reads my work. Thank you so much for the time you've taken to comment here. Thank you, my new friend :)

[barleygirl]

Not sure of your location, but in the USA suicide rates are thru the roof, as well as many other places. There's a growing doom felt by the masses. Many write about suicide and it feels like a dump of ugliness being flung on the page. Hopefully this is helpful for those who need to do this. But my preference is to make art out of such pain, the way you have done. This is one of the most beautiful suicide poems I've read in my 3 yrs here. There's an amazing balance between light & airy, combined with dark & gloomy . . . so that your word crafting sounds like that twisted dose of dread & giddiness that one might feel in such moments (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[LazerRays]

Aye, I am from the USA. And it does have really high rates. I believe the 24th highest out of every country. Thank you so much for reading and appreciating here. Hugs for you too hahaha! Take care :)