That Feeling

this one of my first poems, maybe not that good but its what i feel almost all the time....

I know what I am, yet sometimes I find it difficult to understand.

I was walking the path of deceit hoping I would find someone who would hold my hand.

I never knew the feeling to be looked at like a person that really matters,

At the verge of my defiance, I found someone whom I can count on and climb the highest ladder.

You gave me strength, you gave me hope, you made me feel special,

I felt like we were bound to be together, although to the world I was the Devil.

Loving is hard as people always say, 

Yes it was but not as hard to see you walk away.

And then again, I was all alone but with a different pain, the pain I couldn't bear,

In the path of deceit again, with the pain you left me with as your share.

Maybe it was me, the reason for us to end,

But wherever you are I hope for the best, 

Because now I know who I really am and I never should have let you hold my hand.