World of Lonliness

I was feeling alone close and my body soul and mind felt like it was close to death because of the weary road I been on.

Left here in a world of Loneliness
 Don't even know when I got here
  Shaded covered in darkness
 When did light go so dim.

  I try to remember what colors were like
 But truth is, I cannot remember
  Has it always been so dark in here
and colors were just illusions
   I don't know, I don't know

      Why not cast away this darkness
 and let me see the light
   I just don't understand, I don't get this
 How long will I be left alone

 In a world of confusion that’s plagues my whole being,
Darkness overtakes me, inferiors me, cancers me,

 How long, oh how long
   Am I to stay forever,
 Never to see light again
      Was this meant to be for me
  Is this darkness my destiny
  I don't want to believe it is
      But I'm losing hope

At rapids speeds
   You Shame me, Cast me away,
  And shut me out
     My body is dying, Waiting on death,
  Longing for death

Death what is your delay

Please hurry i beg you 

just come take me away

You enjoying the show 

soul mutilated body tortured

You get off on this, Death?

Oh i cry out  and cry out
    Death mocks my repeated words.

    Death's Getting sweet pleasure from  the
 darkness & suffering that 's overtaken my whole being.

    Where's my hope,
       Where is my breakthrough..
  Was all this my own destruction that done to myself
   The consequences of my own action
 I've gone to far into darkness
   Never again to see the light
 Hope has faded so fast on me

    I give up, I give up, 
      I can't
       No longer will I go
     No longer will I move forward
        No longer will I walk
     Not even as a crippled
   I drop here
       My whole, my all, my being,
    down to the bottom of the  pit 
 This is where I  will remain
    To rot away
        To take my last breath
      Until the hour Death come take me away.....

Author's Note

Im Not totally finished, I need to revise a few things. Just what do you think over all of whats being said?

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[Eagle Cruagh]

---- in your mind you create the world----Buddha.

You can fixate on death or you can dream of
LIFE. Positive or Negative, black or white, day or
night. Once you have decided what you want,
it will come to you. How you think is how you
will live.
If you need help, ask. Specific questions will be
answered. Turn to fellow writers and ask for
help.
------ John