The monsoon ends...

A month without you, Mom

Death was just a way to pay condolence to someone who, now I feel, is bereaved completely. Though I lack the scientific evidences, death to me was always a soul leaving this body and getting mixed up with the unfathomable universe. Earlier, I wrote a dozen of poems about the souls, the life as an illusion and the darkness beyond this deluding life, all inspired from you, Mom. And now, am pragmatically facing it up.

Stanza by stanza!

Behold! 

After a long anticipation for miracles, He finally decided to cure you intrinsically. But this time, I am not at ease with His decision. And sadly, He never realized what we will undergo through. I am tired of faking that I am not hurt. And that I was not hurt. Each moment can be counted and I literally wait for the night to hide myself and these tears.

People come, conceal their smiles in their pockets and pat me. And their jobs, hence done! The consoling part of life after the death of someone who you love a lot is tough! And to be consoled is more aggravating, trust me.

Tuning to a melancholic melody!

Life was a cycle, and it is. But, still we foster this denial within ourselves. And this denial has encouraged me to say that it was too early! That we were still not prepared! That it’s a MONTH without you!

I laugh 

When this sun shines on me…

And wipe these tears…

When the moon says 

“No…

You are not alone…”

-Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel “Hridayaninadini”

 

[Photo credits: http://grazu.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/melancholy.jpg and http://images.fineartamerica.com/images-medium-large/melancholy-of-autumn-monika-pachecka.jpg]

Reviews

[tuvi]

anyone irrespective of whosoever its may be would never be able to not relate to this pain ...
even the remote thought of someone going through it ....languishes me and leaves me numb ...
time heals everything is just a statement for this one ....cos somethings are irrevocable and beyond words .....
writeup very articulately done ! keep up the good work !!

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

Tuvi,

Your review has spoken the truth that I was concealing inside me. Thank you.

[tuvi]

thanks I am glad I could evaluate the essence behind the poem

[TheSweet]

I shaln't insult with empty condolences, though this poem is raw enough for me to shoulder some understanding of your pain in a very emotional context. This is wonderfully written; thank you so much for sharing :)

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

Thank you :)

[Leslie Philibert]

A deep poem that looks at important, central questions. Fine work.

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

Thanks

[MOON]

Mothers love way too precious , loss and grief . Poignant loosing part of yourself. She is with you always though it's the physical presence , the seeing touching hearing the comfort of arms that's so hard to bear! I am sorry for your loss go well ...

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

True. It's alright.

[brandon]

Beautiful

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

:)

[Gobinder Singh Dhindsa]

Very good writing. Keep it up. Do u read mine writings Why and Anguish?

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

Thank you. I will go through.

[Gobinder Singh Dhindsa]

Welcome

[Vic]

This was beautiful. I can understand a lot from this, and I know it must be too hard to bear sometimes. But trust me, I can see you as an author in the future. You've got a lot to look forward to. And it doesn't always hurt to smile. Your writing is truly beauty itself. I'm looking forward to more.

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

Thanks Tori. And you inspired me.

[Vic]

:)

[Renée]

humm I know this pain..you can almost hear the umbilical cord snap at a Mother's passing..to short the time together...to long the grief..and the consoling that others do ..just about drive you mad...
but laughter will come again and sweet memories will bring a smile someday ..this i can promise
You wrote a beautiful piece about your great loss...I am so sorry ..thank you for sharing it with me

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

True. Thanks

[icelandicblue]

I felt and understood this completely. It is too soon, but will there ever be enough time to really smile again?

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

I too wonder...

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for the amazing story. You gave life to the characters and the situation. I like the use of poetry to complete the story. A excellent story.
Coyote

[Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"]

Thanks