Down the Rabbit Hole

This is a poem I wrote in dealing with my mental illnesses.

I'm falling down the rabbit hole again

Falling down, down till I land

In a world I tried to leave once before

The Queen of Hearts is chasing me

Waving her arms as she screams

And the Queen of Hearts is in front

Blocking my only retreat

Two similar people within myself

Tearing me apart from inside out

I hear the ticking of a clock

Somewher all around me

Time passes by as I'm lost in a sea

Of crazy characters from my mind

That represent each aspect of me

That I hide from all on the outside

Is this but an elusive dream

Or is this the only reality allowed

I follow the white rabbit

As I try to continue forward

Stopping at a tea party for the mad

Wondering if this is where I belong

Or maybe this is all there ever was

Or all there will ever be

Nothing more than some rabbit hole

That drowns out my sense of self