The saddest song to sing

Repressing myself

Was it worth it?

Was HE worth it?

Were THEY worth it?

I hadn´t  known the pain

I didn´t knew the soul would hurt

So much sadness, so much despair

And for what?

So I became the perfect imperfect girl...

My biggest fear, I can't even conceive

I can´t even dare to see inside of me.

Who is she?

I feel someones crying inside of me, holding on to life

Now I haven´t got a clue on how to choose

How to live? I let so much to you

Where is me?

I became a joke, I became the world misery

I became insanity

I became the saddest song to sing.

I became the person no one ever wishes to see

"oh no she steels my energy"

Is this what falling is?

´cause I´m pretty sure this is how dying feels

I sure asked for help,

No one ever appeared

´cause when you are hurt

when you are in so much pain

They look away distractedly

´cause if I loose my s**t, "oh no she feels"

"keep her away please"

God can you please have mercy of me?

Can you please take the pain away from me?

Someone hold me, someone please stand for me.

Now I see how perfect I used to be,

How happy, How graceful

So much potentiality...

Such a mastery!

I want to turn back time

I want to hold me tight

And save me before my darkest time.

Author's Note

Sorry for grammar, English is not my mother tongue.