Clueless bliss

I lie down in utter darkness
Hearing your voice countless times in my head hating myself for losing you
Was I not good enough ?
This alcohol is my escape from depression
I hope your happy
I hope you’ve moved on from me
I hope you get what you want out of life
I’m the only person keeping myself down
Why do I think there is hope left ?
I’m no longer me
But you are still you
Wipe my tears and hide my face forever