Killing Small Town Sunflowers 1.15.

1.15.

It was the
fall of 82
Years and
tears after
I tried
to remember
to forget
how much
I loved
you

Now I'm the
talk
of the
town
They watch
me as I
go crazy
Slide on
down
memory hazy

Smile
in confusion
Still under
the illusion
Stung out
Drug-induced
Still asking
myself
Was it love?
Was it lust?
Coming off
the high
of whatever
it was

I’ve been
trying
to remember
how I would
sing your
old tunes
Nights spent
with you
on a going
nowhere
cruz

We would
load up
on booze
and
shotgun shells
Watching the
heavens as
they fell
A shooting
love aimed
at the
stars above
We wanted to
take the sky
down with
us to Hell

I still wear
that gold cross 
necklace
The one you
liked best
How it would
hang between
my soft breasts
Place you put
your heavy head
to rest

For a dark
silent time
You laid
awake
Then in a
whisper
you would
say how
My steady
breath
With my
rhythmic heart
beating
My body
singing
Was your
remedy
To get you
sleeping
It gave you
reason
to catch up
on dreaming

Reputation
Repeating
In this
nowhere town

Where falling
in love would
never escape
It will never
be free
from small town
fate