The pain inside may be suffering, and it may hurt. I hurt. I am Suffering--In all senses of the name, emotion, and reality. But you too suffer. You are what I used to be and what I still am to a degree. Here's my suggestion: The emotions pass and they go away. They're just feelings. They're not you. Only You control them. But keep ever strong. Deep down, I have this feeling that you are. You have to be stronger than you give credit for! In my mind, you ARE strong and wonderful behind the pain, and agony.