Your coming back

So after 18 month of my family being in Canada, they came back to England. But I'd been without them so long that's despite me hurting so much when they left, I didn't know if I wanted them back...

You left me alone
Just 18 month ago
Left me feeling stranded
And lower than low.

I knew not real life
Or the meaning of work
I started from the start
Looking a bit of a berk.

As parents you should have
Taught me how to endure
How to fend for myself
What its like to be poor.

I've taught myself this
I've learnt some of that
I no longer need anyone
I'm no longer a prat.

You've made the decision
To come back to me
But I'm no longer the child
You left me to be.

I've grown to a woman
Dependant and strong
I don't really need you
You've been away far too long.

Our relationships fizzled
The way a families should not
I don't know how to find
What we've no longer got.

I was alone in the world
I've dealt with it well
You want back in my life
I can't yet ring the bell.

My parents, my siblings
Left me far behind
I felt so abandoned
Saw the world was not kind

Can I just accept you?
Forget and forgive?
Will things be ok?
With you here can I live?