Absence

A Story by Saloni

It is soothing to me, your absence.

Your absence made it better.
I always thought without you this place would suffocate me to death. And I was right, because it did. It did suffocate me.
But your memories didn't let me die.
I admit the begining was just too much.
The tears won't stop, and the pain was not fading. There was a continuous sting in my chest, like a nail slowly moving in and out of my skin.
But somehow I survived.
The pain is still there, not so strong but still there. Maybe now that its my own, it doesn't hurt that much.
I'm glad, the tears are gone.
No, I am not saying I don't miss you anymore. Because I do, lord knows I do.
I don't blame you either, you didn't leave me. I blamed destiny, for its plans.
But slowly I realized your absence grew me, when I couldn't do it for myself I did it for you thinking how proud you'd be when you'd know.
Your love groomed me, while your absence just made you so much more beautiful.
Thankyou for the love, and I don't blame destiny anymore.
Because today we are closer than ever, and your absence has made me better.