Non existing ME

I'm confused about everything that exist and that doesn't.

Uncertain words,

are part of my sayings,

Shattered thoughts,

are part of my teachings,

Crude believes,

about what I never believed,

Fading existences,

those who never exist,

Difficult judgments,

for solved cases,

Sore reasons,

to live,

A difficult run,

for a finished game,

A systematic bug,

for a non existing system,

A qualified sin,

to change a sinner,

A sober night,

to finish and start again,

Which is already over,

Like breathing,

The moment after your death,

Like an incident,

of a relationship,

between existing and non existing me,

Interrupted questions,

about this end,

this beginning,

Keeps my faith alive,

that I'm not the only one,

even worst of sickness,

Is strolling around me,

even more lost existences exist,

and all they ever gave me,

Are just,

Few uncertain words,

that are part of my sayings,

Few shattered thoughts,

that are part of my teachings,

And I bought,

few crude believes,

About what I never believed.

 

Author's Note

Please feel free to express..

Reviews

[Kes]

I have a big problem with existence... in that it cancels itself out. Life = death. Where's the sense in that?
So I like this poem. I can hear myself in in it; my own questions. Sometimes I don't know what exists and what doesn't - whether I exist at all. Sometimes I care, sometimes I don't.
I love the imagery you use. "Sore" and "Shattered" are great words. :) I really liked the bit about taking a breath after death as well. On a bad day, life can feel that way.
I love the idea of there being an existing and a non-existing you too. I think that's really clever. It begs the question which is more real.
Sorry I've ranted for so long, but you really got me thinking.
Great write.
K

[RachelReaper]

I really like this poem a lot, i think that it takes time to be able to write deep-meaning poetry and you've developed this one to an art.

[Pax]

questions of existence. and i see a lot of questions unanswered in this poem.
i like the flow and the contradicting lines brings such great thoughts. wonderful write.

[Eve]

Thats because no one has the real answer, we only get to "feel" our way through it, you are only 19 yet, an entire life of choices are ahead of you, the only advice I can give is that no matter how confused, hurt, troubled, inflicted, hidden your pain or love may or may not be in the future, you will ALWAYS find someone out here that "has it" way worse than you...so that helps to you to appreciate the gifts or the knowledge you DO have.

[MOON]

Poignant , lovely write .

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. what i read in these words is a longing for a purposeful existence ... the universe shall definitely answer your prayers ... you'll find the meaning you seek ... that's what happened with me ...

[Harmonica winds]

Quite the amazing write, with such deepness. like the
feelings you expressed. : )