why

A thoughtful question and it's possible answers

Am I not that good
Or am I just not perfect the way u want to
Standing beside me why can't you be proud
Just because I don't bear the best tag which you want the person beside you to have to
Don't I deserve your love
Just because I am not good enough
Why should I be used
Sometimes to make u laugh, sometimes to become rude,
Just because I am afraid
Of being betrayed
Just because I care
And let you stare
Does that mean you can walk away
As you wish in and out of my hearts bay
Don't you feel the pain
I don't know what do you gain
Am I such a disgust
Then why did u say that you trust
If you didn't why did u make me happy
So that you watch my little dream bubble brust?
And when you come back
I will again try to cover the crack
The love you lack
Just so that when something happens you turn your back
And I stand alone
Dying again feeling you gone
Missing your hand
Your existence slipping away like sand
And you turn back again out of no where
And say I make you feel embraced
Why if you had not gone would you feel such disgrace
But love again takes place over the right
I let you come back to plight
Just to break me ones more
Just to leave the stitched me again tore
Why is that you fake love
Is it that you like the way I sob
For you in the corner of my heart
Which is now a piece of dirt
Blown away by the wind
Through memories that keep me bind.
I feel so bad
But I am glad
Not because you don't love me
But by the fact that you don't see
My eyes that search for you
My hand that misses you
My hear that wants you
And me who loves you
Still I wish to be your last
And perhaps to make you forget your past
But I am afraid
You will never feel the words unsaid
So do as you wish
Let me stand and fetish
The pain of love
The hatred and disgust of your I mentioned above......
Just to know why?