(throw)the(switch)

A Poem by saijinsong

The wheels fell off the cart tonight
and the rope’s still tied around my neck
but somehow everything’s alright
cause right now I’m numb and
I can’t tell the difference between
my notions of what’s wrong or right ‘cause
after last night I’d be fine if the lights went out for good
Because I realized I can’t do this on my own
and you’re not willing to learn
how to count out the rhythms in my head.

I laid it out in front of you
in black and white, large print and highlights
Counted out with explanations
of what it meant, why it made sense
Never told you what to do or say
just use your heart and we could play
a song of life, your life, my life, our life, just try
that’s all I asked, all I ever wanted
some f*****g feeling, unchained emotion

I don’t care what that book says
or what he said or where you’ve played
their opinions shouldn’t matter
but you’ve let your obstinance
tear apart all that we’ve worked for.
There’s no more blood left in this pen
and I’m tired of spending all my time
in efforts just to stay alive
so we can make a better life

So I’ll (throw) the (switch)
and make a run for it
before my soul becomes polluted
with ignorance and laziness
I have swallowed all that I can take
and it makes me sick to watch you waste
your life away in the name of pride and selfishness

I don’t care if I never play another note
at least I won’t choke on my tongue
because I’m not the one afraid to compromise
what’s inside for the sake of something bigger than myself
I hope that you don’t go through life
with a narrow minded view of how
things should work out just because
someone else has done the things
that you wish you’d have done.
We came from different places, different chances
opportunities were handed to us in the past
but it shouldn’t matter because here and now is how it ended.

So I’ll (throw) the (switch) and make a run for it
Too bad ‘cause you are the one throwing away all we had
I just had the balls to get out of it
to keep from drowning in your s**t and selfishness.
Best of luck, but not to you.