Every Breath You Take

Beep. Beep. Beep. As your chest rises and falls underneath me with each calming breath you take I think back to how it all began from the begininng...

 

I would have never thought you would smile at me like the way you did, let alone say hello back. I'm not sure what had caught my attention but I was drawn to you, and the funny thing is...I never knew it. We became friends, close friends at that. It didn't matter what was being spoken, but that we understood each other more than anyone possibly could. No one would have suspected we would have ended up together not even us, our friendship seemed like we were brother and sister, but one day that perspective changed. We were walking home from school and you pretended to push me down the hill, but I really did fall and I brought you down with me, I fell on top of you and our lips smashed together from the way I landed. I would honestly have to say it wasn't the most plesant first kiss I was expecting, I tried to pull away before you would notice the redness in my cheeks, but you caught hold of me and kissed me...and I kissed right back as my heart hammered it's way out of my chest. Now I'm not big on the whole love thing but after that day we became unseperable. Our hands locked together as we walked down our schools halls my head held up high, because we became one. Every kiss, hug, laugh...no...each and every moment that we spend together is cherished in my heart. Hah, I remember when you poured your heart out to me, it was Valentines day, you took me to all the places you felt were special to you, you got down on one knee, took my hand and spoke, "I love you and I want to spend every waking moment with you, go through every heaven and hell with you. Just promise me that one day you will say yes, that one day you will wear that beautiful gown and walk down that isle and say I do." I was to shocked to speak for awhile, it seemed as if it were a dream and that everything slowed down I wanted to say yes so badly but the words wouldn't come; it was funny though cause you knew what I was going to say before I could find my words and say it. And I kept my promise from that day on....

 

The slowing of the beeping moniter brings me back to the present and I know I wouldn't have much longer with you and I try my best not to shed a tear, I would want you to remember me the way I was...happy...I would cry when it was over but I didn't want to think of it being over now, I tried to cherish this moment, your every breath, the feel of your slowing heart beat against my own chest. I wouldn't want you to ever say goodbye because I knew it would be a straight up lie. People think that will be the end of it, when your heart stops your gone but no, you will never be gone, you will live in my heart and soul. I will take the memory of you every where I go and I will bring it to life. I smile with tears in my eyes as your chest falls and never rises again....