Resting Grounds

Venting sadness

Sadness emerges
Erupting greatly
Issues rushing forward
Problems I've bottled daily

I feel a tear start to trickle
I try to dismiss it
Another hole inside
Another day pretending I've filled it

Hidden voices whisper secrets
Secrets of long ago
Gun to my head
No longer sad
Are you proud of me Dad

Delusions spark controversy
A fog of mystery

Are you empathetic
Do you understand
Do you know what I feel
Did you think this was what I had planned

As my head kisses the ground
I'll be forever silent
My secrets quiet
Slowly decaying

I've found my peace
It's where I could never go
Where nothing can ever hurt me
Where feelings can never follow

As my body becomes colder
Do not feel distraught
I am finally myself
No longer worried about perception
I will be forever in celebration
I am who I am.....