Happy In The Saddest Way

Could be about many things.

Could you have truly never known?
I exposed my wrists
Blood was drawn
I showed you with a kiss
Was I truly wrong

I'm happy for my scars
Happy in the saddest way
I've exposed my secrets
Even though It placed me deeper in hell

I'll propel myself forward slowly
With an emergence forthcoming

To see things from up close
To step beyond my boundaries
You've given me a new scar

I embrace it
I caress it gently
While its nothing new
It pierces immensely

I wrap my wrist in wire
Tug ever so tight
Hoping to shield myself from sadness
While also expelling light

I breathe in my hate
Let out a giant sigh
Snap out of my slumber
F**k the world and die

There is no heaven
There is no hell
Just an eternity of misery
A feeling I've come to know well

It's a place I've been forever
Its sweetness cannot be measured
Tonight I shall accept its place
It will be amongst my treasures

I love how I've come to accept my thoughts
They are mine after all
I kiss my latest scar
Its half as beautiful as you truly are

If I had to do it over
Would I expose such vulnerability
It showcases my humanity
Introduces me to gravity

I can't always be granted what I desire
Even when I crave it
Your humility is what kept me human
You've seen beyond the illusion

Your essence is so strong
Enshrouding me in light
Someone that's so scary
Yet I can't keep from your sight

I shall never fade completely
I'll just dim what I could
The compassion you've shown
That's something I've never understood

As your sharp edges make your mark
I fondly recall
The blood dances slowly
Those watching appalled

You've brought me to tears
You brought me happiness
You've brought to feel.....
Beyond bitter sadness