Why It Motivates Me

Why a girlfriend is so important to me

 

It's as confusing to you as it to me

Why I hunger for someone that may never be

 

Tears falling

I await your calling

You're still just imaginary

 

Why do I care

If you showed would I dare

If you spoke would I

Would I just sit and be shy

 

You're my motivation

I'm not 100 percent on the explanation

I just want to be loved

To be wanted and hugged

 

To be really loved

Not when its convenient

To feel needed

Not mis-treated

 

To feel worthy and attractive

A reason to live

Someone to look forward to

Someone to appreciate what I can give

 

To feel less alone

To feel human

To stop this pain inside

That's always consuming

 

To have someone to be near

Someone I don't fear

To believe its possible

To let someone near

 

To know someone won't run away

To know they won't laugh

To know its okay

Whether I feel skinny or fat

 

To just be accepted

To just be happy

To have someone who understands

To not feel rejected

 

To feel the same as those whose eye's sparkle

To know what it's like

To feel brighter than charcoal

 

To feel free from all my worries

To look into her eyes and behold her glory

 

To hold her in my arms when she's sad

To calm her down when she's mad

To live knowing I'm worthy

 

To feel like someone would choose me

Instead of always being ignored

To feel the sensations a relationship explores

 

It might not make sense to those who've already had

But these are the reasons I want it so bad

In a way though I'm glad

 

When I finally find that someone

I'll squeeze her to death

Tears will fall from my eyes

I'll run out of breath

 

I'll do what I can to make her happy

I realize this is really sappy

But its honest

 

It will probably never be like I imagine it at all

I may forever wait to hear the call

I may die alone

Tears rush down my face as I remain prone

 

Even if this is true

At least I tried to find you

I tried to measure up

In the end I'm just a f**k up

 

So here I lay to rot

But of you, I never forgot

 

Reviews

[pinpen]

You are a very powerful writer, i also enjoy your poetic ability. I like the emotions behind this write.

[Sleeping Maiden]

Oh damn.. this is such a wonderful piece. Yet it circulates such sadness... a reader would cry! I feel sadden by this.. i sure hope you'll be okay. And to tell you, a girl should love you! You seem so heart broken.. but it sounds your such a nice guy..
I'm sorry you had to deal with such pains in life. But trust me, I'm not gonna say time will heal or it'll get better because i know better than to give you those types of advice that you probably have had in the past. Plus i've had those types of advice and it doesn't help me. lol. But.. you must know.. there's someone out there that you will find and meet! If she doesn't see your kindness.. the world is fucked...not you.. that is what it is.. xD But im sure you'll find that girl ok. =)
Your poem is so deep and so... direct. So much emotions in this piece! I adore it. But i sure hope you'll be okay. Keep on writing ^^ I love your work!