Scared To Grow

Fixing to try and do something that has the potential to really further my growth. But I'm freaking out at the just the thought of it.

I'm scared to pull away

No matter how sad you make me

I can always rely on you

No matter how hurt I get

You lovingly embrace me

I'm so afraid of change

I'm afraid to grow

Even though I desperately want to

Pain is all I know

I'm practically in tears

Drowning in my fears

I don't think I can do this

How will I make it through this

I can't understand simple things when I get around others

Just being around one, and I feel smothered

I'm so scared that I'll do this

What if I annoy them

What if they get get pissed

I'm such a wasted effort

Such a waste of space

Too afraid to fulfill the dreams

I myself, set in place

Please help me

I can't do this

I'm not stable enough

I'm just a joke

I'll lie still

Wrap your arms around me

Begin to choke

I can't do this

I want to

I can't

I'm just a broken winged bird

Step on me

Don't chant

Shoot me, throw me

Shower me in ants

Scared as hell

End of rant