Just How Hard ?!

A Poem by Rajwa

So Many Words Wondered In My Mind..
Unfortunately Every Time I Tried To Express Them I Fail To Find The Start..

Every Part Of It Had Wounded Me Badly
And All The Scars Are Bleeding At The Same Time..

Leaving Me Lost To start With Which..
It's �' Hard Feeling when U Want To Tell To Let It All Out But Couldn't ..

It's Hard When U Know How Hard Is Ur Pain To Be Understandable..

How Many Times Have Ppl Fail Me I Stopped Counting..

How Many Times Have I Felt Lonesome In The Middle Of The Crowd..
Everyone Was Sending Me Arrows Without Noticing..
Even The Trust I've Build In ppl Begun To Break Again..
My Nights Became Long and Painful..
Everyone's expect Me To Be The Strongest Expect Me To Prepare All The
Ways Of Comfort To Him..

How Hard Was It To Stand Still With �' Serious Expression Trying To
Help Them While They R Broken Although My Own Heart Was Shaking !!

How Hard Was It To Remove All The Hatred Towards Someone So U'll Be
Able To Create The Right Environment For Ur Friends And This Person
Then U..

How Hard Has It Be To Put The Pressure On Me And Move On Solving And
What I Get Is ................

How HARD Was It When I Putted My Hope In Some Persons To Take Away My
Pain Without Noticing That Am Suffering And What I Get Is More Painful
Days..

How Hard Was To Place Ppl Needs Over Myself And What I Hear From Them
Is How Selfish..

How Hard When I Can't Explain All The Damage That Occurred To My Heart..

And The Hardest Is To Deny The Pain And To Smile Laugh To Please Ppl..

And TO Laugh In Front Of The Person U Couldn't Even Make Eyes Contact
With Him So U Won't Cause Ppl & Urself More Sad Days..

Although I'v Been Able To Say All This I Still Feel Like I Didn't
Express This Will