Balance

I try to outrun my desires, to replace the agony by gasping for air..
To outrun my fears and my anxiety..
And for a split of second, get over me..
To watch my yearning out of my heartful box..
And be like others observing myself..
I try to see my painful dreams with a shallow sight, with no feelings of fear..
I try to neglect my assumptions and resort to action..
I attempt to be dashing even if through my devastating actions..
I leave my rumbling emotions on a nightstand and take the thought that I fear to undertake..
Even if wrong even if right. What am doing is apparently a desperate fight..
Against my will against my hesitate style..
And all the weakness I behold in tight..
Begin to whirl in restless state of mind..