Be Not Afarid

Everything evaporates. It is all so temporary.
In these moments where time stands still, I am lost.
As my eyes open and adjust to the light, ten years has passed.
Am I alive or am I only living?
Cathartic acts release the stress as I smoke my last pack.
I'm never alone yet I've never felt so lonely.
The painful paradox of this world.
You notice from a distance but its all locked up.
Throw away the key and my innocence is gone.
Control is an illusion, the chaos takes over my life.
In a haze I am taken by the current, a wave of people stagger by.
Where is the Xanax that clears my mind?
Empty bottle leaves me numb,
My heart struggles to beat.
Don't try to reach me, I'm gone.
Whats left in this room is a carcass of my former self.
Roll down the curtains and burn all the candles.
My body aches for your touch.
Lock the front door and leave me for death.
Shadows swallow me whole as I drift away.
The sweetness of your eyes lifted my sorrow.
Temporary healer, left before he could say goodbye.
Have you laid where I lay?
I'm an actress, performing. Did I convince you to stay?
Be not afraid my beloved, be not afraid.