Old Me

I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss your positive energy and the fun we used to have. I miss how you could be at peace with nothing. These days it seems like your mind is always running to something. I miss how life couldn't beat you down but now what I see most is that frown. I miss how you could always turn it around easily and could feel peacefully so frequently. I miss your carefree attitude. I miss your cheerful mood. I miss you being more nice than rude. I miss your faith in love. I miss how solitude wasn't the only option you thought of. I miss how you could love every little thing. It makes me sad they can't give as much happiness as they used to bring. I miss the days you weren't tired so often since now it is so common. I miss you not stressing about the what if's in every setting. You were always so good at counting every blessing. I miss you not always feeling so self-conscious. I miss you easily talking nonsense. I miss your small talk skills. I miss you not making mountains out of molehills. I miss the warmth of your soul. You know, the one you had before the world made it cold. I miss you not keeping a grudge to hold. I miss you never feeling out of place. I miss how you could help others forget the problems they face. I miss you being able to brighten their days. I miss how you were happy always. I miss you not having the need to build a wall. But what I miss most is not having to miss you at all. 

Dear old me, I wish it was you who I could be. My heart has a special place reserved which will stay empty until you have returned. I know you're in there somewhere and I'd like for us to meet again. So I'm asking you to please come back. I hope the answer to that is not an if but a when. Once you decide to do that, I'll be ready then.