Never Finding Love

Eyes open wide

They all gasped

Surprised by my answer

When they asked

Have you ever been in love?

Against the status quo I say no 

Puzzled faces left their traces

They wonder, how can that be?

I reply with a shrug and a sigh

Does it really matter why?

It's just the way it is

No point for an analysis

It's not that miraculous

Yes perhaps I didn't try enough

Or maybe this love stuff is just not for me

But I can't help but wonder

What if it never changes

What if I stay alone 

And it's love I've never known

What are the consequences of this

If it's love in my life I'll have to miss?

Maybe I will never find love

Maybe love will never find me

If this happens, what does that mean?

Have to admit it's a vision I have seen

It's a thought I have more often than not

But I don't want to settle just to settle down

I don't want to marry just to wear a gown

But without love society says you're incomplete

It's in our dna, it's simply our nature

To focus on catching a fish in the sea

But that was never a goal for me

I always believed love is for the elite

I'm convinced love makes life greater

But it's a treat and not a guarantee

Only some can find the kind that's truly true

But the focus on relationships is society's view 

So if I won't share my life with someone else

Does that make me a failure?

Is there a flaw in my behavior

If I can't find someone to be my savior?

One plus one will always be two

So who will be in my equation

Who will complete this combination

Is finding this even a possibility

With my lack of availability

Maybe it is, maybe it isn't

Maybe it can be found

Maybe it stays hidden

But it's foolish to dwell

Because only time can tell

If love can put me under its spell

But if I never find a love that's true

This is for my future self

A last thought from me to you

I've always been a closed person

And in case that has never changed

If I have remained to be reserved

I'm sorry I couldn't give you the love you deserved