If I Leave First

Dear whoever you will be,

This is written by me to be read by you

Words you will see when I am gone

Words that are on my mind right now

Which will have meaning later on

We have yet to meet but before I forget

I still want to write them down

At the moment we are still strangers

Unfamiliar faces as I write on these pages

Going places without each other

Creating memories on our own

Circulating as fate is waiting

For us to meet and no longer be alone

For that moment I write these lines

For when I am yours and you are mine

For when our paths finally combine

And we will spend our life together

However, nothing can last forever
All good things must come to an end

Life is something we cannot control

No loophole to escape its death toll

Eventually time will run out

But to be honest, that doesn't matter

What counts is what you will remember

And that's what I want you to think about

Without a doubt one of us will leave first

If it is me I wish it could be reversed 

Because being left behind is the worst

We'll never be ready when the day comes

That my last breath escapes my lungs

But for the moments you feel alone

When my life has been set in stone

Instead of wishing I stayed 

I hope you can cherish what we had

And retrace the memories we made

Think about how things were

And not what could have been

Look at the bigger picture we took

And reminisce the places we have seen

But also embrace the small things in between

Think about every game we played

That you were beat when we used to compete

How you claim you've let me win

Because you know that gets under my skin

Or how you pretended you cared

About pointless facts I shared

Because you knew they gave me joy

So you would listen to them anyway 

I am speaking hypothetically right now

How our future will truly be is unknown

But theoretically this can be a reality  

And as I keep that in my thoughts

I wrote this for you to see

To someone I still have to come across

Scribbling these words to be seen by you

Reading with eyes I have yet to look into

Hoping you won't change from feeling blessed

And rearrange to a life of feeling cursed

That you won't stop looking ahead

But find support in looking back

So whenever you miss me

Just close your eyes and count to three

Know that in your mind I will always be

So please remember, if I go before you do 

You can keep me alive in your memory