Dreaming Of Heaven

I dream at night, I dream during the day

During dreams it's with reality I can play

Thinking about God working in a mysterious way

It's only when I'm dreaming I'm able to pray

Life keeps me busy and occupies my mind

It's a cage that is keeping me confined

And when it was from life that you resigned

Its meaning became even harder for me to find

In my dreams is the real reality I seek

Because there it's with you I can still speak

But maybe of heaven it is a sneak peak

And my dreams erase a part of its mystique

Maybe of heaven my dreams are a preview

An introduction of the place where I can see you

A déjà vu where I meet the person I once knew

A false reality, but to me it feels true

Whenever I get up I have to go to war

To face the reality I desire to ignore 

Wishing life returned to how it was before

But sometimes my heart can't bear anymore

Whenever the sun rises and brings daylight

I have to get up and begin my daily fight

It's only when I sleep that I feel alright

Because I can keep you alive during the night

It is life I'm trying to outlast

Every day I feel like an outcast
My presence is stuck in the past

Because you were taken from me too fast

But the benefits that I reap

Is never having to count sheep

Because I cannot wait to go to sleep

Since it's there where it's the memories I keep

It seems that only through dreams I can survive

It's an extreme scheme that's keeping me alive

But it's through dreams that it is you I can revive

Because I can visualize the memories of my archive

Your eyes always mesmerized when we spoke

They sympathized during hardship when I broke

Hypnotized by the feelings they would evoke

But it would all vaporize the moment I woke

Your voice I can still hear in my head

During the day it leads to tears being shed

But at night I hear the comforting words you would've said

And this would all disappear when I get out of bed 

So that's why it is dreaming I prefer

Enabling a life in a world where we both were

It is why from actuality I deter

And why I'm waiting until it is to heaven I transfer

A lucid style of dreaming keeps me awake

Even if I'm sleeping I feel my consciousness ache

Convinced that your departure was a mistake

So please don't wake me up, for heaven's sake