Letting You In

My mind has always been my own place

A space where the world has left its trace

Affected by all I hear and see

It comprises the most important part about me

A storage room that is the basis
Of my entire being it is my oasis

But here you are, trying to find the door
To enter and become a soldier in my war

Wanting to help me so bad

Because it hurts you to see me sad

Asking me why I won't explain

Begging me to tell you my pain

Saying you know it is my pride that's making me hide
But that I should know you would never leave my side

You want to know the deepest feelings of my heart

But I just don't know where to start
You want to know the thoughts I have never shared
But in all honesty, I am scared
I think a part of me does not want you to understand
Because the aftermath can not be planned
Fearful things won't stay the same
That your tone will change when you say my name

How your eyes will see me in a different light
Because you think it is no longer that bright

And because the future is unknown
I have trouble with letting you in my zone
So my mind remains concealed
As I unintentionally defend it with my shield

And no matter how hard I try to make amends
This warfare of mine never ends