Mentality

I think therefore I am

I exist but it feels like a scam

Alone with just my thoughts

Turns my stomach into knots

Struggling with hopes and aspirations 

Causing my mentality to undergo fluctuations

My mind and rationale are not aligned

Leading to a loss of purpose I cannot seem to find

A state of mind holding me back

By emphasizing everything I lack

Yet you try to remain by my side

Wanting me to confide what's on the inside

You claim to perceive things that I do not see

And profess that I impress with simply being me

But all the words that you say

Simply sound like a cliche

Their authenticity I want to believe

But I assume you only deceive
Subconscious trust issues arise

Believing your words comprise a disguise

So I seek meanings behind your sighs
And look for hidden lies in your eyes

So I remain having reservations

During all of our conversations

Desperately trying to let them dissolve

But it is something I cannot seem to resolve

And although it is something I have to figure out on my own

Please promise you will not leave me alone

Because despite of what I show
You mean more to me than you know