Letting You In

I wish I could tell you what goes on inside my brain

I'm trying to find the right words to explain
I attempt to formulate the thoughts that weigh on my mind
Searching for the right words which I cannot find
No vocabulary sufficient to convey the way I truly feel
Trying to deal with emotions is my Achilles heel

My weakness, my flaw, my lurking limitation

Every word I speak a falsification 

A distortion of my reality within

As long as I've known, this is the way it has been

With every word I speak a part is left unsaid

Frustration begins to mess with my head
Words do not encompass nor convey
What I truly want to say

I will unintentionally deprive you of my inner fights

And of the thoughts I have during the nights

I would communicate it all, right here and right now

But unfortunately I just don't know how
I hope you can understand that for the time being
I can only let you go sightseeing
Letting you visit different places of my soul
Whilst still trying to maintain control
I will show you bits and pieces here and there
But one day I will completely let you in, I swear