Paranoia

tick
tock

the noise of a clock in a silent room
resonating

 

tick
tock

getting louder
as my paranoia
not hesitating

 

tick
tock
just wishing the time would stop

 

wishing my fears would go away
thinking a lot
tick
tock
as the pendulum swings
dont even appreciate the existence
of my own being
swing
swing
and the clock goes tick tock
pounding in my head
as the door goes knock knock
too many noises at once
as my senses are rocked
i look at the clock
seems the time has nearly stood still
only minutes have gone by
could have sworn
hours were killed
knock
knock
but i know nobody's there
this cant be happening again
stuck in a stare
tick
tock
knock
knock
as the pendulum swings
my own senses tentalated
at such simple things

 

slow down
you can control this
i tell myself
even though i know i can't
the trembling in my fingers
now becomes a whispering rant
make it stop
make it stop
i can't
i can't
tick
tock
tick
tock
as i hear another knock
and the pendulum swings
then silence...

 

im panting
sweating even though i'm so cold
trying to get a grip on my mind
trying to grab ahold
of anything
that can make me feel like i'm standing still
in a room that's spinning around me
still filled
with the raging thoughts that surround me
not healed
i spill
my body onto the floor
seems compforting
it stops!

 

no wait

 

tick
tock...

Reviews

[Shane Hogan Poetry]

I'm having trouble breathing...the suspense is killing me, I hope it lasts.

[shawnt5604]

:) ........................

[kumars]

this is very good poem indeed my thoughts moves and swings like tick tock, paranoia is a state when we don't know whether we should appreciate time or not but time is always a subject of appropriation.

[shawnt5604]

thanks again kumars!

[FlatLineBeauty]

You portrayed paranoia so well to where i started hearing the clock in my head and i was looking over my shoulder. Good write. xo Winter

[shawnt5604]

haha! I love it! lol thanks for the feedback dear :)

[Lyn Anderson]

Takes the reader on an intense anxiety ride. Great. Now, I will only mention it because my OCD compels me so - there are three or so missing apostrophes - so either take em out or leave em in, it looks odd with a mix of some and not.

[shawnt5604]

my intentions exactly, thanks again!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Sometimes we are a wee bit paranoid and the feeling can be paralyzing,You have portrayed this well here.Good one:)

[shawnt5604]

so true! thanks!

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are welcome:)