still not sleeping
with my eyes wide open
feeling like my time to shine
is slowly closing
tired of not being able to smile
remembering what i used to be
tired of looking at the mirror
and seeing me
looking back at the days
when i woke up with aspiration
now i struggle to even get up-
disheartening how the times are changing
taking a moment to reflect
wondering how i ended up this way
thinking about tomorrow
hoping its not like today
my dreams from yesterday
are now the failures i realize
these times that pain me
are the things i feel inside
waking up to a day
that i never thought could happen
a better tomorrow
is now hard to fathom
staying optimistic
now seems so unrealistic
but as my faith grows
i must stay with it
these thoughts that materialize
strangley have me mesmerized
as i stand in front of the mirror today
looking into my own eyes
and only then can i see
deep inside my own misery
a man in the mirror
that i'm actually glad to see
it would take a fool
to need a million dollars to be happy
i dont even need one
to open my eyes and gladly see
that this is a beautiful world
god has given to me
happiness in my heart
is as simple as a smile
from you to me
so many
are caught up in what they have
or what they do
but true bliss
is from within
hard to see
but its true
and i must admit
i thought the same things too
it took a long time
to appreciate
walking in these shoes
but only now i can see
how many true blessings
have been laid in front of me
i'll wake up with a smile
and just be
the me i've always wanted to be...