Unforgiven

Emptiness fills the space

I can feel my heart sinking down to the pit of my stomach.

Eyes burning, ready to tear

Habitual blinking becomes idle

All from secret words make public

Trust put on a pedastal shoved down with such force

it shatters into pieces never meant to be put back together

We stood on the edge for too long,

one of us was going to jump.

Never once did I fathom I would have help in hitting the bottom

seeing only your guilt as I looked back up.

 

The nerve of confrontation decides to override

fear.

Confessions are spoken for the first time

No longer is the hatred in my eyes

unlike the shock and disappointment when my suspicions

are verified.

Throwing me off was never your intention

But neither was it an accident.

A rope ladder is tossed down by you

Supposedly helping me back up.

Can I trust you once again to not cut the rope?

 

Face to face.

Your sorrow filled eyes look

at the burning redness of mine.

Silent plea's of forgiveness fill the air,

unbearably tensing it up.

My eyes soften with my pitiful smirk

as I turn to walk away.

Each intention I possess all have one similarity -

even though you pulled me back up,

you pushed me down -

walk away and never return.

 

My head bows to watch each heavy step

before I abruptly stop.

A single tear falls

resting on my open palm.

A simple action of examination is full

of complicated thoughts.

I turn to see you standing in my dust

as if I had sped off leaving you stunned.

Looking directly in your eyes

I give you a forgiving nod

recieveing a relieved smile in return.

 

As I turn to walk away

I slide my hands across my worn jeans

drying the wet drop on my hand

A small movement

amounting to the hardest guessture

of wiping clean the slate,

letting it all go,

and forgiving what I once thought was

Unforgiveable.

Reviews

[Jenny Nelson]

Very emotional and full of turmoil. Ends very nicely with forvgivness and hope in trust. Liked this a lot.