broken

 Im so broken

unable to heal my pain

Im so hardened

from my life i lived in vain

from the blood i took away

to the things i would never say

why would you look right through me

right past my fading smile

to see my old concealed frown

wishing i would drown

in my dispare

no one around

no one to care

no one to grab me

moments before

i leave this ground

go off spinning

into the world unknown

unseen by the living

 

i want to go where i have never been

to leave my unhappiness

in my skin

to leave this bruttal body which i live

to leave this sin

to leave and start anew

to believe again

in myself

in you

i want to be happy again

pure and fresh and not so crude

its like my body

was built

incorrectly

the peices fitting like ill matched shards of paper and plastic

recyclables from other useless bodies

 

 

 

 

i just feel useless...

unreal to the future...

unreal to this person i will never become

why

when all i am is done