2 Years Since

I've felt a lot these last two years

My hearts been hard since fay died

Grandad died around same time

The family wasn't true

Kayleighs suffered too

Rachel at uni being stalked with no support

Things hit rock bottom all my thoughts turned rotten 

Suicide suicide suicide

Broke up with Chantelle around the same time

After that life was play time

Drinking every night life was mine

But felt cold around the same time

Got home and felt alone

At home I felt alone

Thoughts wouldnt stop

Yet on the outside I was on top

Happy but clearly disconnected 

New friends had me feeling disrepected

After two years lifes still feeling hectic

Author's Note

First ever poem, any opinion is appreciated good or bad