Black Regret

The sadness of physical abuse and the changes made to the mental

Sit here a moment
Let me tell you a story
A story of the queen of death
She was once pure
Was just like you in the beginning
But her beauty was captured by the leather and the ice cold metal
A wound so deep that anger grew
Stripped of her innocence
She was destroyed just like everything beautiful
Only to be a professional at the game of death
Whatever she touched
Wherever she walked
Death followed
Others mesmerized by her elegance
Her beauty
Her pain
The real tragedy is not that she was empty
The tragedy is that the world thought she could be saved
You can't save what is lost
Just like you can't fix what is broken
Those who loved her were just another victim
Yearning for her love
Yearning for the soft embrace she could never give
They dreamed of a life with who they thought was their queen
Never knowing they would only be burned and left with scars that will never truly heal
She is relentless
Ruthless
Vengeful
Heartless
Broken
Filled with a collection of everything that would break anyone
Yet she could endure more even with all that pain, darkness and grief
She's the one you dream of and desire
That look she gives as if looking into your soul
The sound of her voice that lures you in
Her soft and warm skin that will burn anyone who touches her
Her tender touch that is filled with pain and sorrow
As much as she was desirable
She walked as if not understanding her own beauty
She walks with darkness over her
She is beyond compare
And at the same time your worst fear
When she allowed you in
It is not sincere
It is not pure
But she is a master at the art of love
She will make you feel whole
Make you feel like she is only yours
But no one has ever really had her
But will make you feel like she's giving the best of her
She is that untouchable unreachable cancer that will spread until it kills
Without a second glance she will reach within your heart and rip your soul
As much as you can love her you will hate her
But will never feel as much as you feel when you are in her presence
She is not your soulmate
You are not hers
You are just another one of her victims poisoned by her treacherous and poisonous love and relentless anger
She is not the air you breathe
She is your queen looking to take your soul
Because she had no love left to give
Not now
Not ever
She is the queen of death
As beautiful as she is
This is a reminder that when she walks past you
This is her story

Reviews

[Malia]

Very honest, I love that. This poem reminds me of myself. Love is poison I must say because us pure creatures are always ruined by it. Great story I enjoyed sharing some of your darkness and truth.
I hope you're in better spirits nowadays

[RxQueen]

Thank you Malia. I appreciate that you enjoyed.

[Srchaud]

I am guessing this about addiction. It feels so right, the addiction that you fall in love with only to be hurt in the end.
Addiction at the most extreme end leads to death, its your fate if you never brake her grasp.
Addiction is like a queen this very poweful thing that seems to have control of you and at times even telling you what to do.
I like it, good job.

[RxQueen]

It is actually about mental and physical abuse. A history of abuse and failed relationships due to that history that left a beautiful person forever broken.

[AmateurWriter01]

Wow that was good. I was truly captivated by this. I could feel myself yearning for this queen but also afraid of the pain she would give me. It was an amazing thing to read thank you.

[RxQueen]

Thank you Amateur. I am glad that you were able capture what was meant here.

[JC]

I like the flow of this, that dark enlightenment that comes with an underground culture, that we are drawn to because of a change inside of us, and also changed by the culture we embrace...I've been the one that would be passionate but never fully available, and also the one burned by the woman I wanted more fully but couldn't. Great read.

Found this one err: Yearning for the soft embrace she was could never give

[RxQueen]

Thank you so much for catching that! Also, thank you for reading!