PassingA Poem by RuseInex
soul pain,
the cold of it is the heart of alone/ness is like an familiar, empty chair, that can never be filled, rooms full of things, . . now makes a house full of emptiness, my soul is filled with pain, i feel her invisible fingerprints on a table the cold of emptiness, . of missing her one/ ness along with the gone/ ness of her voice, echoing up the hallway though the lights are on everything is dim once it was a home it can never be again, she, my love is gone, our house an empty cavern, sounds of stillness hurt my ears, . . drive sharp pangs of pain, deep into my heavy, heavy heart i miss you beyond words, . lovely things i shared with you are disappeared, even memories of strife, only those of you, retained, stored in my soul remain, we can no longer share, lovely ones, perfect pure, and tender sweet, treasures of your precious, precious love, only they remain, though they be passed, ohhh, so good, once upon a time, all of these swept away, in an instant, unannounced, unexpected, innevitable, . . . ohhh, my love, once upon a time, but they hurt, these overwhelming memories of you, i can touch them with my spirit, but not with my fingers, to caress, to warm me of this chill, memories cannot comfort me, and their hurt is real the ache and the weeping, burning grief are all too real though your clothes are here they seem not too real, as if belonging to someone else as with your shoes, as mere, as if foreign objects, your pillow is a torture soft it was, now, hard as if it were a rock, i shun to touch, or even dare to bring it close your bedside, as if a wretched stranger, though they, these things be here, there is no comfort, only deepening of the void . . . your robe has traces of your scent, the things you touched surround me in a frozen state, . i would trade them all away only so that i could have you back your warmth of body heat, i force myself to hear your voice to mix your presence of yesterday, as in once upon a time, when our souls merged with every breath, but then, with soon regret, it makes the pain unbearable, to the verge of craziness self made victim to desperation, how foolish, stupid crazy that i am, to desparately again, reach for you, . as if this bad dream is unreal, i reach for you through its haze, i cringe at the thought of hearing your voice through video, i cannot endure, i will not, i will hide myself from these, but then, to your image move across a scene, pictures of you on the walls, send me reeling, caught by surprise i cannot stand my head spins in a fog i must lay down, i lose my breath my chest heaves my sobs violently convulse, i wish to die and be with you loneliness profound is being without you there is no greater pain of the soul there is no relief, there only remains one way to ease the grief, is to leave this house, leave all behind and move far away © 2019 RuseInex |
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Added on November 13, 2019 Last Updated on November 13, 2019 AuthorRuseInexFresno, CAAboutI was born in obscurity Outside a small country town’s limits In a plank shack I kept a few memories That come into my head That i still carry around That i visit now and then The dust .. more..Writing
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