i choose christmas

i choose christmas

A Poem by RuseInex

oh, i wander on this earth
oh, it’s so dangerous
where is my protection?

my help is called lonely
my thirst sits at the bottom of niagra falls
my heart is crushed with lies
they swirl in every direction
like a mindless storm
tragedy abounds,
no shortage of news griefs
hearts beat slow and skip,
and stop
tears flow,
the floor slips

i am lost in the whirling winds
of dying voices,
here today,
obliterated tomorrow
like at the end of a gum eraser

how can i find rest
when i see fragments of people,
dissolved like shadow dreams,
dissolved by the dark
then heat
and cold
and then fire in agony,
that comes from nowhere,
groping in the dark

i am fragmented myself
by the moving of time,
relentless
never slowing,
here today
gone tomorrow,
but never stopping,
pushing to the narrowed edge

my sorrow is deep
and endless
i cover it with short term occupation
only my compassion for others' pain
keeps me sane

i am weak
i am stubble
i am burdened
deep beneath the rubble

only music
only a script
only the sounds formed together,
that weave a visual story,
such as the genius of charles dicken’s,
a christmas carol can heal me now,
the black and white version,
the 1935 youtube marvel,
can heal me now

only the profound meaning found
in the invisible,
the tragic,
made sensical by the outcome,
even in the midst of supreme and weighty pain,
misery and dread,
only the threads of reality,
of compassion,
that tears the veil of pride and selfish,
unseen,
guided by invisible hands
only the ethereal,
the spiritual from the glorious above,
only such balm can heal me now

my soul and my spirit yield now,
to the sounds of christmas
its simple truth brings me relief now,
if but only a moment

i succumb to the beauty and the truth
and the light
and the sound
of the glory
of the meaning
of christmas

i rise to the strength
i go by the power of the one,
who at this time gives me meaning
and shares his limitless love

i choose to go through the storm,
tossed and torn by the shards
of the harsh,
of the place we call earth

i choose to see smiles in place of human frowns
i choose to walk in courage and love
i choose to take the X out of christmas
and fight quietly against disdain and dread
of this season,
this time,
this place,
until all things are restored,
as in the final chapter,
as found in the glorious,
sounds and visuals,
of another classic marvel's ending chapter,
that transport me back,
coupled with years of living,
seeing,
feeling,
believing,
back to where things should be,
where they were always intended to be,

though it's dark
the glorious light of Christ and his love
still lights the world,
i choose Christmas

© 2018 RuseInex


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RuseInex
RuseInex

Fresno, CA



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