babel of lonely

i'm lonely in a crowd of people
an empty heart
a broken shell

i'm waiting for kindness
waiting for them to understand,
i mean them no harm

they rush past,
jump over,
stumble,
don't care,
too engrossed
too busy
to know me

i hear them,
their paranoia and suspicion
they don't share
to let me
let them know
i dare to care
to hear their words

i will not let myself
be thrown away for anyone,
or them for me,
i'm here to rescue
with my words,
stand the danger
and the insult,
be it low intelligence
be it mean, or insecure
be it drunk, or spiteful

some may think
i aim to do them harm,
think i mock them
think me beneath them
they think to seek me out

i entertain the moment,
the paths we cross,
i indulge
i impart
i care
i try
i take the time
they don't understand
they won't go away
they come back

on the surface
no connection,
blinded in the thick fog

oh, behold how good and pleasant
it would be for brothers to dwell together in unity,
in blessed unity

the unending war
the planetary strife
the weight

i choose loneliness
in a remote and quiet place
on the rocks beneath the craiggy peaks

i'm lonely for trails
leading to nowhere,
bird cries,
hawk circling high above,
rambling streams of water flowing,
or not flowing,
a desert biome wilderness
hungry for lonely

no people
no grid
just lonely