i just want to beA Poem by RuseInex
for all the wasted time Lord
i apologize for all the broken dreams, i submit for all the pain in which i came short to die, i cry in my empty, lonely soul, when i am without you i stare in wonder for the wanting, to know and understand, when i couldn't cry for all those who've died or keep track for my futility, for my tears, for my helplessness i would have died in a heap a mass of flesh and never risen i thought, but time is short, it went by quick the page is just around the bend to turn and close it's through the front and final door, it's filled the days fly by as scattered leaves sweeping fast past the blur of the sea of lives in the blowing wind, some alive, some not rushing past everything going, going fast, no turning slow anymore as i fast and faster go i approach no turning back beyond my feeble grasp all the deeds all the grays and blacks all the good and the light no thing new under the sun is left the summation of all the tragedies, the adding up all that's happened, the going down of the voices and the screams the calmness and the quiet the pains and joys the wasted hours the ways of work all, seem vain and empty i sit here alone and think i do just as i did before and will do until the time comes, like when i was first entered into this realm my first breath of air and my last gasped, loud or quiet as i see the faces of the all that's past come to my memory i wish to join them as in, i just want to be i want to find the end and just be, in a place forever peace for all the things i left undone, i apologize even though i know, i could never have done them all for every unkind thing i thought and said and fed, i let the water, cleansing fall and wash i let it now, i submit, i let go, i cannot do without you let it sweep away i let the wish for it to carry me away, with all of this, i let go, i submit for every hate that i let breathe, to cast out, beside myself, i could not do, no matter how hard, i could never do i will not let it though, like greed to take to take me in, or allow it in i reject the mark of cain my soul will not bear the stamp of the beast of its head, or in any of my other many weakness be, i shed i say in this moment, this weak in time, i let unravel i stand before you as in, i just want to be, i want to find the end and just be, in a place forever peace, i want to be with you © 2017 RuseInex |
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Added on September 16, 2017 Last Updated on September 16, 2017 AuthorRuseInexFresno, CAAboutI was born in obscurity Outside a small country town’s limits In a plank shack I kept a few memories That come into my head That i still carry around That i visit now and then The dust .. more..Writing
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