stormy voyage i am yours

i can barely keep my eyes open
my mind is adrift in a fog of fatigue
sleep taunts me, fitless and elusive,
casts me to the sharks of painful wakefulness
that slam and rip upon me, 
that spin my head to ache,
i am sick

heavy, like lead i drift
moored to a broken body
in a whirlpool of nausea,
round and round,
like a spinning circus
that makes me want to crawl out of my skin
as i resist to stay awake
sleep mocks 
the wheelhouse is damned

my course is to belong to forever someday 
the plot makes it the more real, yet surreal
due its difficulty in its challenges 
just makes me want the real deal, 
now all the more
painful 'cause it's not mine yet
gets more difficult each day,
adrift at sea in a valley of death and dark,
i reach for you
he takes the helm

the skies are filled with clouds of grey and white
there is a morning doldrum in their wings
it comes, 
it flies like a lazy bird of scavenge
it hides from my hungry, tired eyes 

and strikes like a silent plague
it fills my lungs with its stain
i watch you labored, breathe
as i take a staggered step
to reach for you

the span of time has no regrets,
it has no rue, 
bold it walks through valleys of death
it holds its secret to its breast 
its jagged teeth drip its dread
dares to sink 'em in your dreams
to rip and tear and snare you with its fear
it cares not what you may think
nor i, 
it binds us to sharp horns of regrets
made stronger by our present weakness
it's agony to see you fade away

i am not aware of what is past without feeling,
even in the burn of misery 

deep inside my imploded chest
you, as helpless as i, 
fail in your try
to eat your piece of crusty bread,
along with mine,
the pain and famine stays
we draw water and bring up blood

i starve to look upon your face
your lips pressed close and hard to mine
are so very hard
to resist
even in death's embrace

i hear the chime 
of the midnight toll,
of the roll call
we're on board the lonely ship
it travels in the crack of day
my hunger grows
my sacrifice is you

the rolling waves of music like a slow gallop,
breaks their crest
plays your heart, 
forced to lay your mind on mine
i am for now a bit more satisfied
i will swim a thousand leagues for you

but for a short time we live and give
we put our best shoes on and vest
and move along like the rest,
thinking not our end will come and hit against
the rock of what is built 
by those who do their best 
to undermine your work and mine
we cannot lay down our arms

back to the bridge
we take the helm
steady on with the course
steady now, 
through the gale and the guns
to the next horizon
whatever be the cost,
we don't have much time,
forever you are mine

Reviews

[APOORVA]

sharp, lovely and soft all three all together.
superb one dear writer.

[RuseInex]

Thank you Apoorva for taking the time to read and comment

[LKBillips]

Lovely and entrancing. Nicely written!

[RuseInex]

thank you for taking the time to read this one, i will read more of your writing craft as my time permits and will comment