final momentsA Poem by RuseInexmy wife cried at my gurney's side today i sensed immediately why 40 years of marriage will do that she saw me lying there in patient's garb a thin threaded gown of sorts the kind that shows your bare a*s and hospital socks, the cool ones with upraised rubbery treads for soles the ones my daughter doth love and steal when i'm looking around unawares, my wife cried as i suspected the reason, i proposed to her at that moment, ". . . you're seeing me vulnerable and symbolically weak projecting to the future when i'm in worse state, or lying in death's repose in a casket of wood?" she acknowledged that yes, as she sat close across, watery eyes that did not quite tear for i interjected with words further of life, and philosophically added pertaining to past, how young we were and how quickly fast the years did fly by and with further projection i volunteered more, as she listened intently my introspection saying that the next 20 or so, would go just as fast, that nothing doth last let's enjoy what we have and endeavor for more, to cherish as well, somehow stretch the time to further make last at that her tears fell, now droplets down her pale soft cheeks i said, "it's unpleasant, this, our subject at hand, but rather i'd do it now, i hope you too understand, we may as well talk about it some here, than wait for the end without time opportune and rue a regret for not having done so, to partake of the awkward, yet simple hard truth that upon this unheavenly, unpredictable earth, we must deal with things that often brings worse, for to not accept them would be like dying of thirst, while sitting by spring of purest water to drink" she kissed me away to my check-in with nurse i thought for a moment, could be our last soft touch before death's curse, as i wheeled away on the gurney's hard steel such felt my heart towards this raw deal this deal that all who now live in this reality called the world, must, and will die, nothing in our power can prevent our demise, except accept rage against reality or truth and you'll only frustrate yourself to distress persist and the danger is anger toward God, acquiesce and submit to the faith He provides, you will live in a different state kind of way, for you'll know it's not blind, it's just another dimension he provides, in the world, but not of it, another reality not seen with regular eyes another life is waiting that follows this sordid, unkind and harsh kind of way have faith and patience and let the Shepard befriend you and he will in the end lead you to waters of everlasting life and into his kingdom carried by his ministers of flaming fire called angels, to his kingdom of peace where there is no fear and the sting of death know more over us let the scoffer scoff, let the evolutionist who believes in life's so called origin, let him slurp primordial soup along with ancestral apes such an insult it is to the creator so said to acknowledge the beasts in place of having design that is divine, in the image of God was man thus made, complete with intelligence for light of his word with abilities manifold to feel for to think, to make good decisions, in freedom decide whether to well do or to evil incline in the wake of nonchalance toward God belief is of essence, the life, he's thee source without which death is sure life, the observable or invisible, replete for to see far from our ability to full comprehend, to enumerate or elucidate clear, marvelous complexities like the guts of a cell inconceivable structures micro and macro, atoms quarks - those subatomic, those at the threshold of matter to spirit immense suns and oodles of worlds those at the threshold of mega galactic, ominous ponderous dark matter's staggering concepts prodigious, our feeble grasps yet simple to hold the lamb of the king for those who have eyes, especially you who have pondered with open eyes of a child, wise beyond the wisest of men, secrets revealed by he who spoke, commanded it so, to let him save you save you beyond the grasp of philosophers who spin webs of thought and words, beyond theories metaphysical fun forever spinning arriving at none arriving concluding ethereal toys, those that seem sound with surreal proofs and vacuous voids vexing the mind twisting and grilling and killing the psyche gentle gymnastics, in carpeted rooms, electronic ambients, air perfectly balanced but in the final end, futile portend, wheeled away on the gurney's hard steel such felt my heart in this raw deal all who now live in this reality called world, must, and will die, nothing in our power can prevent our demise 'cept faith in the shepard, friend of man blessed jesus, the christ in the end lead you if willing, to waters of life eternal into his kingdom carried by angels flaming of fire to his kingdom of peace, where there is no fear where the sting of death is known, no more over us © 2017 RuseInex |
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Added on February 16, 2017 Last Updated on February 16, 2017 AuthorRuseInexFresno, CAAboutI was born in obscurity Outside a small country town’s limits In a plank shack I kept a few memories That come into my head That i still carry around That i visit now and then The dust .. more..Writing
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