i'm just fine, thanksA Poem by RuseInex
i'm fine, no really
i'm fine but my mind is failing, my heart is freezing, i'm fine though my heart is hard like ice broken brittle by beatings with iron bars i'm fine, no really fine like a fine edged blade that cuts cuts the cuts on top of cuts i'm fine enough to know that pain is real i'm fine enough to know that if i told you the real way i really feel, you'd freak out, you wouldn't want to finish hearing what i have to say you'd feel awkward, not know how to hear know not how to react know not how to reach you'd move on to another subject you'd say you were fine too, or you'd say, "it's all good," deny your real mood, or if you've suffered worse you'd understand i'm fine, no really, fine enough to know there is no such thing as fine things aren't fine as long as i know that someone, somewhere, . . . this i'm sure is true, is going through hell somewhere, somehow . . . i can't carry the weight of the world on my shoulders but i sometimes do, sometimes i try there's no way i could really be fine unless maybe i know ignorance, or maybe if i know that i don't know ignorance as in ignorance is bliss, . . . no, ignorance is not bliss, it's just not knowing and if i don't know, i'm not fine then maybe not because i want to know which makes me feel not so fine i'm fine, no not really i'm fine when i'm asleep, unless i wake and know, that not everything in the world is fine, which it isn't really fine at all so, i'm not really fine i'm fine . . . no, not really, i'm just okay and considering the troubles we all have, being fine is as fine as, it is what it is © 2017 RuseInex |
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Added on February 15, 2017 Last Updated on February 15, 2017 AuthorRuseInexFresno, CAAboutI was born in obscurity Outside a small country town’s limits In a plank shack I kept a few memories That come into my head That i still carry around That i visit now and then The dust .. more..Writing
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