living dream

i woke up in a dream
i saw myself asleep
my face a familiar form
eyes closed, mouth shut tight
as i lay on the bed,
then i floated up above suspended
didn't want to leave
i begged me please, my body to wake
it would not move or stir
my spirit form translucent hung like a linen sheet
now what? where to go is all i felt with loneliness
with no accompanying force of thought or entity
how strange it'd come to this
no chance to say goodbye to those i saw below asleep
still lying still on their beds with their moving chests
breathing with their spirits still within their bodies
dreaming dreams from which they'd awaken
never wondering what they'd slept when woke up in the morning
or even of their dreams unless they were enough to stir them
to remember what it was they'd dreamed about 
that made them fill with awe 
and then find my lifeless body still and cold
or aware i was above looking down below
wondering how it was that stopped my heart
my last breath that i took
missing me and shocked with their crying
me, sad and lonely wondering how to get back into my self
as i wondered i was pulled up into a light
a tunnel shaft of rays white bright and disappeared inside
i then remembered when i came into the world 
as a baby by my mother's life
helpless in arms that held and lifted me as i grew,
the faces that beheld me 
their voices soft and stern and in between 
the sound that filled the hollows of my ears,
the words, the pictures all the things i saw
that made me what i was that took me to the end of this
to make me cry and laugh despair and fret about the world i saw back then
it seemed a minute from babe to older man
all in a moment's time to this as helpless as a babe
about to enter into another realm and start all over again
where time was not a measurement but only the present now
everything seemed irrelevant, insignificant and of little worth
as i entered into the light all my dreams came true